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I was always the one who gave more in our relationship.. And that was okay, because I thought you loved me. And I hurt so much when you left without a single utterance because I wondered what I’d done wrong.
I went through everything and came up with a million possibilities of what I could have done that made you leave. Maybe I was too clingy, too needy, not clever, not pretty, not successful enough for you. Maybe you found someone else because I wasn’t there for you. I didn’t know.
And I missed you for so long because you had been the best thing that had ever happened to me. But for the first time in a long time, I think I finally feel okay again, and I know that I’m finally done. I’m finally done waiting.
You know when you’re sat on the ground in the corner of a room sobbing desperately and wondering what you ever did to deserve this? You know those moments when you think to yourself: “Oh god. I will never ever recover. I’m permanently broken.”
That’s what you did to me when you left. I thought I’d be able to cope, but I couldn’t and it hurt more than I’d ever believed possible.
And even though I’m slowly getting better, somedays I see you around and a part of me still wishes I could tell you how much I miss you.
I always believed when they said that true love lasted forever. In all honesty I still think it does.
But I also believed that what we had was true love and now that you’ve forgotten about me and moved on so fast, I’m not so sure what to think anymore.
In so many ways I want to hate you. I want to resent you for making me so sad and feel so much pain. Yet another part of me knows all I really want is just for you to come back and say sorry and tell me you made a mistake.
I think I would take you back in an instant.
pain doesn’t hurt if it’s all you’ve ever felt